Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I'm really wearing out...And it is only TUESDAY!!!
2nd day of the week...
I'm feeling myself getting sick!!!
OMG!!!
Not good...
Done 3 home visits yesterday...
And i would say,
None made my day...
In fact,
A little upsetting with the visits..
But it is part of my job...
Slept late...
Worn dress to work for the first time ever...
But not feeling strong...
Feeling cold and freezy...
Signs of falling sick...
NOT GOOD!!!
Dozing off at this very moment...
Work is also piling up...
Higher and higher it is getting...
So much to do and so little time...
How am i going to cope...
My love is not around to let me whine at somemore...
Anyway,
Just wanna wish daddy...
HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!!!
Another year older le wor...
Best wishes... BOTTLED by .I.R.E.N.E. Peaceful Spirit (John 14:27) 9:15 AM l 1 Bottle(s)
Friday, January 22, 2010
Heartless...What kind of r/s this is???
What kind of person i am to you???
Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah...
It goes on and it do not stop...
These are once again all laid in front of my face...
It is just a total re-living of my darkest fears...
Nights after nights...
I'm not sleeping well...
And this is really affecting me professional and also personally...
And i am really working hard on it...
It is not easy to unwound deep wounds...
But i do need to do so...
For my own, my love's, my family's sake and also my client's sake...
Guess that this is just a path i have to brave through.
And thank God for giving you to me...
To walk out of this darkness along with me...
It really send thrills down my spine...
Seeing a 15 year old to react this way...
To be such a vengeful person...
Someone who really plot hard to get back on someone...
It is just so scary...
And unhealthy...
It is just like having a serial killer in making around me...
I just wish that i can help this boy...
But he is not ready to help himself...
And so,
How can i help him???
Guess it will unfold as time goes on...
It need time, i guess...
Just like me...
In great need of the time to clear the darkness of my heart... BOTTLED by .I.R.E.N.E. Peaceful Spirit (John 14:27) 8:25 AM l 0 Bottle(s)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Sorry blog...I have been neglecting you.
And today,
I truly understand how it feels...
I'm so terribly sorry...
For making you
Wait and wait...
Hope and hope...
Sorry to crush the hope that you have for me time after time...
I know that you have been very bearing to me...
And you have always been just sitting there,
Waiting for me to come to you.
Here i am now..
And here i commit,
I will be alongside you from this point on...
And not letting you feel the abandonment anymore...
Lost From You
I reached for you
But I couldn't find you
I called for you
But you didn't answer
I trusted you
But you didn't care
Cause when I looked
You weren't there
I searched up high
And I searched down low
But I don't get it
Where'd you go?
You had always been there
Oh so near
When I looked
You'd disappeared
Now my chest is getting tighter
I'll drown in tears for sure
Its getting hard to breathe
My hear ache's more than pure
I wish that you could see me
And what you've put me through
So that way in the future
You'll treat me true
Dear blog,
Guess this must have been how you felt...
And i truly understand all it all...
I'm Sorry and i will be here from now...
Within your reach...
A brand new year...
A brand new start i guess...
New school...
New work...
New environment...
Good start...
But the route is tough...
Really tough...
Have been very loaded with work...
So much so that I'm officially LOW in my blood pressure and also my glucose level...
NOT GOOD and NOT HEALTHY!!!
I need tonics...
LOTS OF THEM!!!
Like what colleague said!!!
It's only week 3 of school!!! STOP CREATING SO MUCH TROUBLES!!!
But i guess...
This is life and a woe of ours as a counsellor...
No way the kids are going to STOP creating issues and troubles for sure...
Enough of grumbling...
I would really love to thank God for all he had placed for me...
I am really glad that things are starting to come to place for me...
Despite the fact that it will not be as soon and easy...
But still,
I'm beginning to see light after so much darkness had dawned on me for so so so so long...
Thank you, Father for all the blissful events in my life...
And also for the misfortunes in my life...
These had all made me a stronger, wiser and tougher person...
In place to do Your work, my Lord.
Still,
I would love to show compassion still...
Not only in my field of work...
But also to people around me...
As only through all these,
I can truly find my happiness......
But yet at times,
I still do feel rotten...
Guess it's still due to the fact that i am not open enough...
Just a little thought:
I feel like I'm wasting your time.
I want to be with you,
But I'm not willing to put it all on the line.
If only you just knew.
I wish you could read my mind.
So I don't have to say what I really mean.
This chance is slowly passing me by.
If only I could set the scene.
I can't take this much longer.
I need you to listen to me.
These feelings are becoming stronger.
If only you could see.
If only I could describe what this is about.
If only I could bare my heart.
If only I could scream it out.
Maybe then, this would start.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Woah...It had really been a hectic month for me...
Sooooo Sooooo Soooo many things happened...
I almost died from the load of things....
But still,
Managed to enjoy myself a little...
Not too bad...
So,
Here comes a few bits of what had happened...
Firstly,
With my kakis...
Last month,
On 18 July,
Celebrated Ser's Birthday early...
At Marina Square...
Had Changing Appetite....
Before they head down to Bugis for K session...
And for me,
Home SWEET Home...
All thanks to class the next early morning...
ARGH!!!
Then a session of old school and mambo night on the 1st of August...Had really lots of drinks and fun...
Still,
Really need to be high to have so much fun...
But a shame is that...
Double O close early that night...
So Sad....
If not,
Can enjoy more...
No more clubbing with them since then...
Meet up with the gals only...
On 5th Aug...
For Pasta Fresca...
The Food is nice and Yummy...
And then Mac Cafe before heading home....
Till now,
Haven met them...
Everyone is busy with our own stuff...
For example...
ME....
SO SO FREAKING BUSY FOR THIS MONTH...
Handed in 2 FINAL thesis FINALLY....
Now,
I only left with some case study and i will be done with my studies...
But suddenly,
I felt a sense of loss..
What am i going to do now...
Lucky for me,
MOE replied...
I'm going for interview,
The second time this friday....
So freaking Worried for it is the second time....
WISH ME LUCK, ppl...
I really need it so so much....
A classmate also asked if i will want to take up Doctorate after my director finished hers and open a class for it...
Sorry guys...
I will really go for it...
A bit too much of studying le ar..
But i think it is essential and good for me...
I think i need it....
Had a great time with my classmates last friday...
A classmate, Sunita had just left for Home, India last sunday...
Thus,
We had a dinner and a drinking session on Fri with her...
Never expected them to be so so much fun...
All of us are so different from class and our professional outlook...
Pictures for that will be up later...
Another BIG headache i have been having for the month...
My boy...
NOTTI BOY...
Fractured his hind leg...
Luckily,
No need of operation...
If not,
I really gotta eat grass then....
Jus have to bandage him for a month...
Which is not easy for him....
When he is so hyper active...
Heart breaking to see him limping around...
But there is no one to blame but himself for this....
Now,
He is well again...
And all naughty...
But nevertheless,
He is always my baby boy.... BOTTLED by .I.R.E.N.E. Peaceful Spirit (John 14:27) 11:06 AM l 0 Bottle(s)
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
PHEW!!!AAAHHHHHHH CCCCHHHOOOOOOOOO........
WHAT A THICK LAYER OF DUST!!!
Sorry...
Haven't been around here for really some time...
Just got well though...
Was sick since last friday...
Got chased out of class halfway through.
Thought it could have been H1N1..
But thank goodness,
After being a mummy wrapped with blankets for days,
I got well...
Not so lucky....
A good thing...
Hehe....
Just a little update...
Delwi,
My boy boy is growing real fast...
I would say that he is a BIG BOY now...
Cos he is really growing up...
And learning to.....
Hehe...
PCC...
Haha... Notti Boy..
BUT it's nature...
Hehe... Poor me...
Gotta clean up his mess though...
Hehe...
Got a love...
Hehe...
So happy...
Sold off my iphone 3G on the day 3GS was launched...
Sold it at a good price...
The 2nd day of the iphone 3GS launch,
Queued up for 5 hours,
Got my WHITE iphone 3GS...
It's SO much faster...
And most important of all....
IT"S WHITE!!!
And i earned a fair bit...
Hehe...
So Happy...
Likewise, went to wrap it up nicely and with crystals...
HAPPY HAPPY...
Before i was sick,
Was really busy with my essay...
My recording...
Met up with my classmate, Marilyn for many many days before we could complete it...
Not easy at all...
Also took me days to write out the transcript of the recording...
ALMOST DIED...
NOW I KNOW WHY I GOT SO SO SO SICK!!!
Hehe...
I also MISSED my sister's 21st bdae celebration last Sunday....
But anyway,
We had celebrated with her on her actual day.
This period of time,
I have had my bad times...
But all are over...
Quarrels and unhappinesses...
All over...
I have my happy and good times too...
Like getting my new phone...
Getting it done nicely...
Having to eat good food...
And alot more...
Oh ya...
Have had tried quite alot of new food recently...
Been going around...
Guess,
Gotta stop that before me going fat...
Also...
The little scars are going off...
Not as obvious as before.
So happy...
Glad that things are getting along my way now...
Things are all going fine now...
Glad that daddy's sister is fine...
Glad that everyone around me is happy and ok...
I now...
Just wanna pray that Edward, my classmate cum pastor be ok and fine...
That Lord will take good care of him.... BOTTLED by .I.R.E.N.E. Peaceful Spirit (John 14:27) 9:56 AM l 0 Bottle(s)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Wow!!!
Sorry peeps...
I'm not dead...
Been almost a month since i was up here...
Hehe...
Just that a little mood less,
I would say...
House undergoing painting...
Finally done...
New coat of paint and new look...
GREAT!!!
AFRESH!!!
Last week was the first-ever...
Close...
Almost...
Coming into contact...
With.........
H1N1...
Hehe... My lecturer landed from Melbourne and was requested to perform a blood test before having a 'green light' to lecture...
Thus,
One day lesser of lesson...
Don't be too HAPPY!!!
There WILL BE make-up lesson...
Hehe...
Other than that,
Nothing much happening...
Been the SAME...
Teaching...
Studying....
And
SLACKING...
Hehe...
A MUST to-do in my list...
This week...
A Heated 'debate' on my facebook...
Hehe...
So,
Do feelings come from Heart or Brain???
What purpose does the Heart really serve???
Hehe...
Never ending debate this is going to be...
But like what my poly bestie, Yang had said...
"老五， this course had made you to be so 不浪漫。。。人的心是有感觉的。。。我们的脑不能代表一切。。。”
Hmm...
Maybe so ba...
This may be agreeable in my point of view 2 yrs ago...
But now,
I know it is not really that way...
Truly...
What is forgiving???
Forgiving one...
Is it a greatest gift you can give to the other party???
For me,
I feel that it is the greatest gift one can ever give it to oneself...
What is the point of being angry with the person and not forgiving him/her when he/she did not even care about anything regarding you?
And holding on...
It is so painful...
So,
Why still do it???
It is all because you still care about the other party...
Why hate someone???
A lot of peeps said this:
"Hatred comes after love"
I agree...
If it is really like what one said...
I hate him or her...
You feel so,
WHY???
All because you still care about the person...
What the person had done to you...
It is only when you can fully let go of everything regarding one person,
There will be no hatred....
No anger...
And even...
Forgiving...
Just like a total burden off your own chest...
So,
Why not???
Life will sure be easier...
为何要为了一个可能都已把你遗忘的人放在心上？
讨厌一个人好累，好累喔。。
又不值得又伤身。。。
讨厌着他，狠着他，不就好像还把他放在心上。。。
放下始终会更好。。。
Was watching the taiwanese drama...
败犬女王。。。
Nice show...
Completed the whole drama...
A saying lingers in me till now...
“男人和女人在说谎时，有什么不同？
男人说谎时，是为了让自己好过。。。
而女人说谎时，是为了不要伤害对方。。。
要保护对方，不要让他受到伤害和没有勇气伤害他。。。”
Something which is very true to me...
I really like this alot...
Something,
A guy will never truly understands...
And also,
A statement which can result tons and tons of never-ending quarrels...
Yesterday,
Went to baby Alicia's first month celebration...
Cute little girl...
Here's a little picture of me and her:
Just now,
Went to my godma's place...
Went to visit my little niece...
She is back in Singapore from Johor Bahru...
She grew so much bigger now...
So much stronger from the last time I had seen her...
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sebast been wanting to see Delwi aka Boy boy for sometime...
Last weekend,
Managed to meet up with him...
And him to meet up woth Delphi and Delwi for the first time...
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